My heart’s worship for the week has been ‘You are my Strength.’ I keep finding myself going back to it because I know there’s no other plausible way I’ll survive. There’s too much going on around me that I can’t make sense of and if I’m being honest, all I can see sometimes is how much I don’t have and how much I can’t do. My weaknesses and mistakes wake up daily with one agenda- to assassinate. You take one step forward to have them standing on the side of the road like deer waiting to run out before your car and cause a wreck. All this pressure around you. Pressure to not fail, pressure to keep it together, pressure to keep showing up to that job, pressure to keep fulfilling your role in your family, all of life’s pressures. It’s like all there is to see is pressure. And if you are not careful, focusing on your weaknesses will remove you from God’s presence.

He’s been drilling it in my head all week: worship through the weaknesses. Not so that my weaknesses can go away, but so that He can be shown mighty. So that I can find rest among the pressure. I’ve always thought that God’s glory in my life was shown through my strengths; that it was in my accomplishments that people saw God’s hand, but this morning during personal worship He let me see the revelation: it’s when I look to be ‘too far gone’ for any salvation or redemption that His glory is revealed.

1 Corinthians 1:27 says that God has chosen the foolish things to shame the wise and the weak things to shame the strong. YALL! First off, never read that verse for myself but today?! It hit me because He’s talking about my things! Yes! My jacked up, ‘Jada what are you even doing with your life’ things, God said He will use it too! Matter of fact He chose it. Meaning that it’s on the foundation of my weaknesses that He’s building purpose! I love the Jeremiah scripture that says God knew me before I was conceived. And thinking of that scripture and this Corinthians verse, I have no reason to keep walking around shame. He loves me. He chose me. He KNOWS me. And as long as I keep my heart on Him, my shortcomings won’t even be a thing to worry about bc He flexes in them! Maybe y’all don’t have as many as me, but for Jada- to know that God specializes in my not so pretty things- that changes the whole game. My father has everything I need and everything will work out according to His perfect plans concerning me. Did you catch it? Even being imperfect, God is still perfect. Who am I to mess up His track record? He won’t drop me. He won’t leave me. He won’t stop loving me. And most of all, He won’t let my fallen nature overtake me. I challenge you to believe it for yourself too. So worship. Day in and day out. Work to keep your heart fixed on His goodness and not your issues. Worship to remind your life and yourself that God is bigger than it all, and in Him we have everything we need.

Love you bunches ❤️

-Jada B.