Hey y’all,

Lol remember I said it wouldn’t always be a Monday? Welp. Here we are. I-

Well I’m just gonna have to be transparent. Tonight I went to a PJ party and actually danced around and laughed- like fully laughed. To my knowledge no I haven’t been depressed or anything, but I just haven’t been very balanced here lately. My life has been meetings and plannings thing for these companies I’m helping push and church and practices and school and work and creating morning routines- my day to day life has been eventful to say the least. And in my busy days no I haven’t stopped to just truly laugh *which sucks because I’m hilarious* or cater to Jada. I’ve been pushing so hard in all these different areas of my life and because I’ve placed boundaries and accountability up to help me combat a depressive spell, I thought I could check self care off the list. “I’m not depressed so I must be fine.”

Not. Lol not even close to the truth. And you see- well at least for me, there are certain things I’m learning that my heart is tired of settling for, my mind is tired of justifying, and my spirit is tired of nurturing. Some stuff I’m just coming to a place of “keep the change boo.” I don’t have the energy to fight for something that’s not enhancing the woman I’m making strides to be. I’m tired of losses that could’ve been avoided. Tonight while at that PJ Party I caught myself just being Jada. Laughing as if there was not a problem in the world; feeling all bubbly like a bottle of champagne. Freedom. Freedom to tap into a part of me I shut down because I thought she wasn’t there anymore. When the truth is, I stopped watering the sunflower within.

All I’m saying is, don’t be afraid to be free. Well- I think that’s what I’m saying at least. 😂🤦🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️ Yes things still have to get done, you still have to show up for the different roles life has you cast into, but don’t forget to show up for you. And anything that dare suck anything from you, tell it to keep the change and leave. Easier said than done- T R U S T me, I know. But you don’t wanna be in the muddle of a pj party and realize that you’ve been restricting yourself to a diet that’s simply not for you. Let go and let’s live.

Love you bunches ❤️

-Jada B.