Hey boo heyyyyy,

It’s Monday and the end of September!!!! How are you? First off, where did September even go?! 🥴

To keep y’all in the loop of my life, when I changed my major over to PR I went to God with the career I had in my mind asking Him if it was in His plans for me. ( I’ve changed majors three times in my college career lol I needed to be sure this change was in agreement with Heaven) Not only did He confirm his approval on the change, but He started overloading me with what this career had in store for me. Exciting right? I told him I wanted to have my own network. In my mind I assumed we were on the same page with it being a tv network (Like my role model Oprah ☺️ **hey Oprah!!!!) but He was thinking bigger than that. He started showing me Destined as the network. And as exciting as it was to the umbrella of businesses He has graced me to own, my mind immediately went into “but wait.”

“What about so and so….. she has a business that’s selling that?”

“Well you know such and such just started that up?”

“I don’t even know that Jess would be interested in that?”

“Now ain’t nobody ever did that one, how we gone do that?”

“I don’t want to step on anybody’s toes”

This conversation has been going on for months. Mind you in the same breath that I would ask all these questions, I would also speak over myself “multiple sources of income” and Proverbs 10:26. Don’t get me wrong, I have the faith that He’ll do it, (or at least I’m building it) but I’ve been afraid to offend anybody with what He’s given me. I watched this video and the speaker was saying basically, “don’t dumb yourself down into fit the comfort zone of others.” To be honest I didn’t know I was doing it until I had some girl time this weekend. How dare I? Continue to go before God with all these requests when He’s put the answer in my belly?

Of course you reading like “duh Jada go for it.” But I wonder how many times do we do that? For the sake of saving face or in the name of acceptance, we hold back: Refusing to be vulnerable enough to let others see the process of the work God is doing. You have to wonder, do we really believe He is bigger than anything that can rise before us? Even when it’s people who are coming against you? And not to say it’s intentional, but out of their own reasoning, people will box you in and be offended when you break out. If we are all in Christ, why can’t I feel comfortable enough to tell you the business ideas I have within or the things that are trying to kill me? His word has backed Him in saying that He won’t let us fall, nothing that stands before us will have victory over us, nothing we find ourselves in will overtake us….. yet we won’t speak on the ventures or the process of truly becoming bc “I know you’re doing that now but I don’t want you to think I’m trying to compete with you” or “you won’t help me because you don’t believe He can do it for you AND me” or “I can’t tell you that bc your judgement and doubt may make God change His mind.”

Reading all of this sounds juvenile. Our daddy is the King of king’s and Lord of lords yet we are still getting caught up in peasant drama. How does that work? I’m tired of it. Tired of allowing rocks to cry out for me bc I won’t step out and allow my life to be praises to Him. Yes I will sing and lift his name everyday, but if my actions don’t reflect those same praises, then what am I doing? Singing one thing and then walking on eggshells as if the words I sang had no weight behind them. I am a King’s Kid. You are a King’s Kid. And there is more than enough kingdom for us to walk boldly in so challenge yourself- to allow your life to truly begin to reflect your identity. This isn’t just a Sunday morning mask that you put on in church- this is a lifestyle.

Love you bunches ❤️

-Jada B.