Lol see- yea I think whoever it is that I’m becoming has Hell panicking. That’s the only thing I can think as to why things of this magnitude keep popping up.

Sometimes, as much as we say we will praise our way through without hesitation, our first reaction is pure fear- unbearable heartbreak. Our first reaction isn’t what it should be as the King’s kids that we are, but our humanity is the first comfort zone we ever knew, and initial shock of a threat can push all learned behavior out and put us right back into the comfort spots we’ve grown so familiar with. At least that’s how it is for me.

This morning has been hard. This morning my initial shock happen and all I could do at first was lay in my bed and cry- screw church and any responsibilities I had for the day, I felt the wind knocked out of me. As I’m laying there, trying to wrap my head around HOW to even take this to God, I think of that picture up there and can’t help but relate bc…… FIRST OF ALL IMMA DO BOTH 🗣 I know…. I couldn’t lay in my bed all day, I couldn’t let the what if’s consume me, but I needed a moment.

A moment to release my humanity so that I could put on every garment of praise I’m gonna need to get through this storm. If I have to cry before I boss up every morning, I will. My emotions can’t go with me through this fight. And I’m not saying everyday wake crying, but everyday do what you gotta do to leave your emotions at the feet of our father so that you can boss up on everything trying to suffocate you. Time out for patty cake with hell, trade your sorrows for His joy and watch His strength be made perfect in your weakness.

Love you bunches ❤️

– Jada B.